If its Not One Thing. . .

It's another. The Situation has been resolved. As of now. Its basically on restriction. We'll see where it goes. But it looks promising. HOWEVER, as soon as things started looking up with him, things started looking grim with my mother. I don't know which way is up sometimes. She knows why I act the way I act. I can't help it. I've been conditioned. But she still gets mad. Neither one of us is getting any younger, so we need to not hold these grudges against each other. Everything is looking up in my life. I got my license, I'm getting a car, my love life is no longer up in flames, and I'm doing well in school. I want my relationship with her to be good too. That would just ice the cake that is the perfection of my life. Last month that cake was shitty. So I want this. I REALLY want it.

他们在中国爱我？

I feel like screaming sometimes. . .

My heart jumps rope for YOU. . .

I've been conflicted over the same guy for the past 8 months. I just want to remember who I was before he started making my brain do cartwheels. I miss myself. And while I do want him to commit and quit being a douche, I have to commit to myself first. If I don't look out for number one, who will? Right? Yet and still, it kinda stings a little. Just the fact that he used to think I could give him what he needed and now he never calls. Maybe its the distance. Maybe I'm reading too much into it. All I know is, I just need to chill. From everything. Give Ravie a chance to breathe easy.

Can you stand the rain . . . ?

I'm not the only one in a "situation". All of my closest friends are in them too. We shot first and asked questions last. Our bad. But shout out to these gentlemen, the "situations". It truly is an art. I hate that we're all exclusive with no titles, but I'm glad I'm not in my struggle alone. Can I get an amen? Thank you.