Nicaragua

Choosing nobody and moving to Nicaragua sounds lovely. Its better than dealing with liars that want to rip my heart out and throw it on the floor and then two step on it. Both guys turned out to be a bust. ONCE AGAIN. I'm tired. Why do men do things like this?

I Spoke Too Soon.

I'm stuck between two guys. The same damn ones. I have no idea what the hell I want anymore. Maybe I'll choose nobody and move to Nicaragua. That sounds fun.

Nice Going, Raven,

I'm such a mess. But what the hell else is new? When am I not. I just read every single post from this blog. I think the problem I'm having with myself now is that I don't write anymore.I don't know if I'm coming or going because I haven't been writing down what the hell I'm doing. How stupid of me. Anyway, the "Situation" has been kicked to the curb, along with everyone else I've possibly had an encounter with over the years. But him especially. He made me step outside of my comfort zone and act like I had no sense on more than one occasion, so he HAD TO GO. I didn't like what I was becoming. I'm talking to one person. The same ex. As always. He's been forgiven for the other crap. I don't know for how long though. It's only a matter of time before I'm ready to start acting ugly. It always is. I need to start writing everyday. My memory is bad and I don't want to make the same steps twice. I wonder if Heather is still sleep on my couch....? I'm going to go check. Au Revoir.