Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and Screaming Insides

2008 was quite possibly the worst year of my life. Besides the obvious good times, it was a year that I would really like to forget. seriously.Christmas day. We woke up EARLY in the morning, ate and then drove to Mt. Baldy to see the snow. Then We had Chinese. Then we saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Not the usual Christmas.Elyse's is in the freezer. ....still.

So, I might as well just out and say it..I'm depressed. Random, yeah, I know. Its my own fault, but it's here none the less. I just can't come to grips with the way life is panning out. No matter how hard I try. Music doesn't even sound the same anymore. And its like I need a hug but I don't want to talk about it. and I don't want anyone to touch me. I've been living on kids tv and cheerios for 2 weeks. I feel as if I've left myself.